Friday, June 22, 2012
New Life...
I'm so nervous, because in about two weeks time I will be moving to Penang in a whole new environment. I've got a new job and it's totally different from what I've been working as all these while. I've been working all along wearing work uniform, but now I've got to dress smartly casual (Whatever that is). Wish me luck!
Friday, June 8, 2012
How Do I Motivate my subordinates when I am Demotivated?
Ok so I went for a Leadership training the other day and instead of feeling motivated (as I was during training), i felt totally demotivated by the end of it. Why? Well, because I was asked to explain about my member's recruitment achievement (which didn't hit the target given by my Headquarters) and of course I could go on and on saying that I don't have enough staffs, I have two departments to take care of at once (mind you, I am not the Buddha with a lot of hands), and all sorts, but knowing HQ, I know for sure they're not going to accept my answer.
So instead, I honestly answered that probably my selling skills were not right (The thing i'm selling is my company's member's card). So flash forward to the next day which was yesterday, the HQ boss of mine came over for another evaluation and well I know he's not satisfied with my performance. I don't know what else to say to him; "I can't do sales job! I was never good at sales and never will be!"
But even I know that is not the right way, because people always say, you can't say no, you gotta always say yeah and stuff, but I've been saying yeah for almost two years now, and come on, let's be realistic, I am not cut out to do sales. That's the reason I bypass any jobs in any classified that has the word sales on it, regardless of how high they may pay. I signed up for this job because I like to talk to people (as in deal with customer issues and stuffs), but I don't want to sell things to them. I'm now like the people I avoid in shopping complexes who come up to us saying, "miss do you want to try this and that, we're having a promotion now."
The rejection is killing me slowly. Still I try, but i guess it's not enough. I don't know what else to do. Thus i get back to my topic, how do i Motivate others when I am demotivated? I know for a fact that motivation has to come from within myself, but we sometimes need a little prod in the right direction. I am supposed to come up with pep-talks and motivational encouragement to my sub-ordinates to make them sell our membership too, but how do I do that when I don't even belief in myself?
I can't go ahead and say, "You guys can do it if you believe, because i know you can," when deep inside i'm thinking, "I can't do this anymore." Won't I sound like all those hypocrites i despise? *Sighs*
I downloaded some motivational quotes using my phone, to help me motivate myself. Rationally I've got to motivate myself first before I go around preaching to others, right?
Say as you do, and do as you say, am I right?
So instead, I honestly answered that probably my selling skills were not right (The thing i'm selling is my company's member's card). So flash forward to the next day which was yesterday, the HQ boss of mine came over for another evaluation and well I know he's not satisfied with my performance. I don't know what else to say to him; "I can't do sales job! I was never good at sales and never will be!"
But even I know that is not the right way, because people always say, you can't say no, you gotta always say yeah and stuff, but I've been saying yeah for almost two years now, and come on, let's be realistic, I am not cut out to do sales. That's the reason I bypass any jobs in any classified that has the word sales on it, regardless of how high they may pay. I signed up for this job because I like to talk to people (as in deal with customer issues and stuffs), but I don't want to sell things to them. I'm now like the people I avoid in shopping complexes who come up to us saying, "miss do you want to try this and that, we're having a promotion now."
The rejection is killing me slowly. Still I try, but i guess it's not enough. I don't know what else to do. Thus i get back to my topic, how do i Motivate others when I am demotivated? I know for a fact that motivation has to come from within myself, but we sometimes need a little prod in the right direction. I am supposed to come up with pep-talks and motivational encouragement to my sub-ordinates to make them sell our membership too, but how do I do that when I don't even belief in myself?
I can't go ahead and say, "You guys can do it if you believe, because i know you can," when deep inside i'm thinking, "I can't do this anymore." Won't I sound like all those hypocrites i despise? *Sighs*
I downloaded some motivational quotes using my phone, to help me motivate myself. Rationally I've got to motivate myself first before I go around preaching to others, right?
Say as you do, and do as you say, am I right?
Monday, June 4, 2012
Fear of Non-Existence
Sometimes I wonder what happens when we die? Do we face rebirth or do we just fade into oblivion? What if we've been reborn again and again and finally some upper forces say we're done rebirthing, then what happens? Do we float in space - a nameless, faceless entity or do we join the Upper Forces in what others call Heaven?
I imagine our lives like reels of film - once one is completed, we have to replace the reel for the next movie. So let's say now we're in the 21st century and our movie ends then we'll be in the next 'movie' say in the 22nd century and so on and so forth. But what happens when the Earth no longer has centuries? What if the Earth is destroyed some billion years later when we're in the midst of changing our reel? Do we reborn in space, floating our existence away? Where do we go from there?
All I know about life is learning and growing up, finding your dreams and success, but does it all matter when we're a floating speck of dust in space? Is there a dream or goal to achieve when you're not in your human form? What are we we're not alive?
What is the fear of non-existence known as because I think I may be having it? Sometimes at night when I go to sleep, just before fading into slumberland, I think about non-existence and I have to control my heartbeat which starts to race in fear. I have to think of other things just to get the thought of non-existence out of my mind. Does anyone else feel the same as me?
I don't know the significance of the things I am doing in life when I think about my non-existence. Will it matter whether I have money or food or clothes when I do not exist? What am I if I don't exist?
The good thing is that when I wake up, I forget all about the fear of non-existence and go on with my usual routine, which is significant in the daylight than when I think about it at night.
Am I a freak?
I imagine our lives like reels of film - once one is completed, we have to replace the reel for the next movie. So let's say now we're in the 21st century and our movie ends then we'll be in the next 'movie' say in the 22nd century and so on and so forth. But what happens when the Earth no longer has centuries? What if the Earth is destroyed some billion years later when we're in the midst of changing our reel? Do we reborn in space, floating our existence away? Where do we go from there?
All I know about life is learning and growing up, finding your dreams and success, but does it all matter when we're a floating speck of dust in space? Is there a dream or goal to achieve when you're not in your human form? What are we we're not alive?
What is the fear of non-existence known as because I think I may be having it? Sometimes at night when I go to sleep, just before fading into slumberland, I think about non-existence and I have to control my heartbeat which starts to race in fear. I have to think of other things just to get the thought of non-existence out of my mind. Does anyone else feel the same as me?
I don't know the significance of the things I am doing in life when I think about my non-existence. Will it matter whether I have money or food or clothes when I do not exist? What am I if I don't exist?
The good thing is that when I wake up, I forget all about the fear of non-existence and go on with my usual routine, which is significant in the daylight than when I think about it at night.
Am I a freak?
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