Sunday, December 19, 2010

In Death


                He gazed longingly at her, as she lay peacefully beside him. Like a beautiful phantom, she was there, yet not quite with him. Her beautiful dark brown, long locks were fanned out beneath her head, like an aura of perfection framing her flawless features. Her eyes were seductive, but now it lay hidden beneath her closed eyelids.  Her lips were so naturally red, you would think that she only consumed cherry throughout her life.
 She was all that he had in this world. She was his mother, his sister, his friend and the love of his life. But she didn’t belong to him. No, she belonged to another man: her man, her soul-mate, her truly wedded husband. All he could do was watch from afar as she locked lips with the man she called husband.  Jealousy hits him like a hammer when he sees the husband holding on to her waist as they danced, the way he can never hold her. Bitterness shrouds his mind as he see them cuddling up through the night.
To her, he was a friend, a little brother, a play thing. Someone who amuses her, who flatters her and showers praises on her more than her husband does. She knows how he feels for her, she knows that he watches when her husband picks her up from work and that he lurks in the shadow of her garden to make sure that she’s save at home. She knows that if she never spoke to him, he’d be so depressed, he’d be able to take his own life, and yet all she did was hung on to his words, not promising anything.
He looked down at her figure lying down beside him again, lightly brushing her cheeks. Her breathing was shallow, almost none. He got up from the bed and went to the kitchen, dragging his footsteps heavily. He was almost unfocussed. On the kitchen floor laid a dark haired man. He gave one look at the man, and crossed over him. The man was lying in a dark pool of blood, the blood red so dark it was almost black. His body bore multiple stab wounds, and he was no longer breathing. He took a sharp knife from the counter-top, and without a backward glance, strode out of the kitchen into the bedroom, where the woman of his dreams lay.
He sat beside her, and lowered his head gently. He sniffed her, taking in her fragrance, and the scent of jasmine flower body shower that she always uses. He looked at the knife, contemplating his next move. He knew, he gave her many chances. He had tried talking her out of her marriage, but she wouldn’t listen. Didn’t she realize that she was with the wrong man? It was him that was supposed to be her real soul-mate, not the heap of garbage now lying in the kitchen floor. She said she liked him, she treated him nice and she even went out with him a few times. But when he asked her to be his, she couldn’t give him an answer.
He knew this was the step he had to take. He spiked her husband and her drink tonight, and after they were out, her slowly and deliberately stabbed her husband to death and left him lying in the pool of his own blood.
Now he was moving on to her. It was her mistake never to take him seriously, her mistake to make a game out of his feelings for her, her mistake for not giving them a chance to be together. Now she was going to pay the price for her ignorance.
If he couldn’t have her, then nobody will have her. He took one last look at her, slowly bent forward and kissed her full on her almost lifeless lips. Then purposefully, he took the knife and slit her throat in one clean cut. The clear red liquid trickled down her neck onto the bed-sheet, soaking them up all at once. She stopped breathing.
He looked at her and gave a ghostly smile, then took the knife and slit his wrist deep. At once blood started gushing out. He knew he would die too, only slower. He wanted to feel the pain, and he wanted to suffer the death. There was no use of him alive, if she was not alive. He slumped to the floor as the blood kept on flowing. He knew that by the time others found them, he’d probably be dead.
He closed his eyes as his vision started fading. I’ll be with you soon, he said, somewhere in his mind. If they couldn’t be together in life, then maybe in death they’ll unite.

My Favourite Things in The World

     I am a person who loves a lot of things in the world. There are two things which tie in the first place as my favorite bands in the world, which are TOKIO HOTEL(TH) and MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE(MCR). I was at first so into MCR. I couldn't live a day without listening to any of their songs. And at one point when they went for a hiatus, i started paying attention to TH and i started getting obssessed with TH, especially after going to their concert in KL. Now that MCR has come out with a new album, I can't seem to choose which band I like more, so I decided to give them the first place.

#1: My Chemical Romance and Tokio Hotel

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE

TOKIO HOTEL

     From both the band that I love, I have crushes on the band members themselves. I will list them down in the scale of whom I like the most.

#2: Gerard Way (My Chemical Romance)


Gerard is the lead vocalist of My Chemical Romance, and for me the best singer in the world. I love him so much. Gerard was born on April 19, 1977 in New Jersey, USA. He only started his band late in his twenties, and proved to be successful until today.










#3 Bill Kaulitz (Tokio Hotel)

In second place comes Bill Kaulitz of Tokio Hotel, who is the second best singer in the world for me. He was born on the 1st of September 1989 in Germany. Bill started singing since he was a kid and his band was called Devilish before it took on the name Tokio Hotel.








#4 Tom Kaulitz (Tokio Hotel)


Tom Kaulitz who is Bill's older twin brother is my favourite guitarist, also from the band Tokio Hotel, was born on the same day as Bill ten minutes earlier. Although he is influenced by hip-hop music, it doenst stop him from being a great guitarist.










#5 Mikey Way (My Chemical Romance)

And last but not least is Mikey Way who is Gerard's younger brother who plays the bass in My Chemical Romance.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Tokio Hotel Biography (not my own)


TOKIO HOTEL
Tokio Hotel
 
AMAZING LEADER’S LOVER RECRUITMENT

Bill Kaulitz (Vocalist)

Bill Kaulitz


Full Name: Bill Kaulitz Trümper
Birthday: 1st September 1989
Age: 21Hometown: Leipzig, Germany
Height: 188cm
Weight: 52kg
Color of hair: Black (The color of his real hair is dark brown)
Color of eyes: Brown
Favorite food: Pizza, pasta, in the past I like fast food but now I’m a vegetarian.
Favorite drink: Cola, strawberry milk, peppermint tea.
Family member: Mum--- Simone works in a free tailor’s shop.
Biological Dad ---Jörg Kaulitz is a truck driver.
Stepfather--- Gordon Trümper is a musician.
Identical twin brother ---Tom Kaulitz.
Favorite bands: Green Day,Depeche Mode, David Bowie,Naparte,Aerosmith,Kings Of Leon


After Bill’s parents divorced at his age of 7, Bill and Tom were raised by his mother. Gradually influenced by his mother’s new boyfriend who is a guitarist, Bill got interested in music ( later on his mother married Gordon). When Bill was 10 years old, he founded a band with the help of his stepfather. He began to play the song that he wrote by himself in a club. During his teenage days, he was considered as a fancy dressing boy among his classmates in his hometown, because he wore the suits and clothes that he made manually. In addition, he always argued with some one else. Soon after, Gustav and Georg joined in their band and they worked very hard under the name of Devilish.
Devilish 


However, there were rarely good performances. Fortunately, Bill participated in a show program called Star Search. In the show, he sung the “It’s raining man” of Geri Halliwell, and he lost in the quarter-final, which drew the attention of a famous producer. He grasped the opportunity to be a super star and finally the band signed a contract with Universal Music Company in 2005. Then after they made their debuts, Tokio Hotel created a big sensation not only in Germany but also all over the world. Because of too many trips and shows, Bill had to quit his school at the age of 15 and continued studying through tutors and internet. In 2007 he graduated in Koln (notes: school, between junior high school and senior high school). By the way, Bill’s average score in 6 grades was 1.8, which was a very high score (opposite to Japanese score system, 1 is the highest).
Little Tokio Hotel
 Because of Bill’s fancy dressing, he was chose as the best dresser in German GQ magazine. Besides this he also established his fashion pioneer place. Tokio Hotel attended the Italian fashion brand “DSQUARED2” FW fashion show, did a photo shoot with Karl Lagerfeld for VOGUE Germany 30th anniversary issue and dubbed an animated film named “Arthur und die Minimoys”. Talking about Bill’s girlfriend issue that his fans are interested in, now there is no certain answer, which seems like Bill is not that popular among girls. In the past 7 years, Bill didn’t have a girlfriend and till now he has been looking for.


HIP HOP CULTURE OBSESSED POPULAR BOY

Tom Kaulitz (lead guitarist)

Tom Kaulitz
Full Name: Tom Kaulitz Trümper
Birthday: 1st September 1989 Age: 21
Hometown: Leipzig, Germany
Height: 188cmWeight: 52kg
Color of hair: Black (The color of his real hair is dark brown)
Color of eyes: Brown
Favorite food: Pizza, pasta with tomato sauce, in the past I like fast food but now I’m a vegetarian.
Favorite drink: Cola, strawberry milk.
Family member: Identical twin brother ---Bill Kaulitz
Other family members are same with Bill’s.
Favorite bands: Aero Smith and all the HIP HOP bands like Sammy Deluxe

Tom was born 10 minutes before Bill. They are identical twin brothers. However, they look totally different if we judge from their appearances. Tom always wears a baseball cap, no makeup and wears a Cornrow hairstyle. Now he likes Hip Hop and Cornrow.







Tom admitted this point as well that they look totally different on their outside look. But he believes that if they work together, they will become much stronger as one individual. They are like exactly two sides of one coin.











About their views of love, they think differently. In Tom’s own phrase, he is more popular than Bill among girls. His view of love is quite flexible and he believes that he can have a romantic love even in one night stand.







Although they look differently at first glance, they do have something in common which is study. Tom quit his school at age of 15 as Bill did and graduated in Koln (notes: school, between junior high school and senior high school). Coincidently Tom’s score was exactly the same with Bill’s, 1.8 in 6 grades.





HEALING MUSICAL BASSIST WITH REFRESHING SMILE

Georg Listing (bassist)


Georg Listing
Full name: Georg Moritz Hagen Listing
Birthday: 31st March 1987
Age: 23
Hometown: Magdeburg, Germany
Height: 178cm
Weight: 72kg
Color of hair: Brown
Color of eyes: Green
Favorite food: Fotopoulos, Hot Pop
Favorite drink: Red Bull, Cola
Family members: Parents divorced and no brothers or sisters.
Favorite bands: G Green Day, Oasis, Red Hot Chilli Peppers,Die Ärzte

Georg’s parents were both doctors, so he grew up in a wealthy family. His parents could not play any instrument, but they all liked rock ‘n’ roll music, especially his father collected many classic rock ‘n’ roll music records of Eric Clapton, Beatles, The Rolling Stone and so on. His home was filled with music all the time. In Georg’s childhood, he was always brought to a live concert, therefore he fell in love with music naturally.





He had ever planned to found a band with his friends in junior high school, but this plan came to naught. Soon after he made acquaintance with Gustav in music school and then they were obsessed with music. Like Bill and Tom, Georg’s parents divorced, but his mother had been telling him to follow his heart no matter what he wanted to do. He pursued everything including music freely. The first impression on Georg since his debut was a boy with refreshing straight hair, but he goes to beauty salon to straighten his hair. Actually his real hair is curl hair.










EARLY BIRD IN THE BAND

Gustav Schäfer (drummer)


Gustav Shafer
Full name: Gustav Klaus Wolfgang Schäfer
Birthday: 8th September 1988
Age: 22Hometown: Magdeburg, Germany
Height: 173cmWeight:68kg
Color of hair: Dark Brown
Color of eyes: Brown
Favorite food: Beef ribs boiled with potatoes, rabbits and beans, cheeseburger
Favorite drink: Red Bull, Cola
Family members: Parents, sister
Favorite bands: Metallica,Slipknot,Rod Stewart

Gustav’s father and sister played guitar all the time, so he grew up in a family full of music. His father always played some videos for him when he was at home. Gustav knocked at the table as he beat a drum when he watched the video. Gustav’s father found that Gustav was interested in drum and he sent Gustav to a music school. So Gustav began to beat drums at age of 5. In elementary school, Gustav became interested in other things, however, his father was pretty strict with him. Then his father and Gustav watched Genesis’s video again. Gustav was touched by such a big amount of Genesis’s fans and swore to himself that in the future he wants to be a big shot like Genesis.

After all this, he kept practicing rain and shine. Father’s words were hunting in his mind. Gustav kept practicing as his father taught him, and then he encountered Georg in music school. Soon after, they founded the band with Bill and Tom together under name “Tokio Hotel”. However, in 2008, Gustav got into a big traffic accident. On 5th Nov. he was driving his BMW. He crossed over the lane and ran into a tram. Fortunately, he didn’t suffer injures in this accident while both his BMW and the tram were damaged seriously. Misfortune continued occurring. In July 2009, Gustav was badly injured by a beer bottle which two unknown men held in their fights in a club in Magdeburg. Because of this, he got 36 stitches from his forehead.



Let's see how they have evolved from the little boys to the young man they are today.














-The end-

Thursday, December 2, 2010

About ME

Name 
- Adini

Age 
- 23 in the year 2010

Gender 
- last i checked, female...

What color is your hair 
- black

What color is your eyes 
- brown...dark brown...

Single or In a relationship 
- definitely single

In Love 
- no...not yet...

Fav Food 
- vegetarian

Smoke
- nope

Drink
- water...

What is your fav color 
- black purple and pink

Why 
- i dont knw..i just like it...

Who is your best friend
- Bill hahahahah

Pepsi or Coke 
- coke

What are you scared of
- bugs

What star sign are you
- Leo

What do you hate the most 
- ppl who stab ppl in the back...

Have you ever talked about someone 
- emmm yeah...

Have you ever got in a fight
- no...

Do you hate someone right now 
- yeah...two actually....

Are you shy or the opposite  -
opposite,,,

If you can say anything to anyone what would you say 
- f**k off...

What part of your body do you hate 
- a lot...

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Can I Lend You An Ear?

     My friend was telling me the other day how I seem to be a great listener, always listening to their problems and issues. When I stop to think about it, I had to agree with her. My friends seem to find me every time that they have any issues, or problems, or if they just wanted someone to listen to them.
     But most of the issues that I listen to seem to be about love and relationship. I'm no expert in that matter, but sometimes I like to think that I'm the person that they can turn to for advice, or just to listen to them.
      One of my friend is in love with another friend, so he'd almost everyday tell my updates of his status with her. Whenever I can, I give him tips and pointers (though I doubt he needs any, he very well can do it on his own) , and also console him when he feels down. I try to help the best I can, but I can't make the girl fall in love with him if she doesn't want to.
     Another friend of mine is in a complicated relationship which I'd rather not talk about and complicate my explanation any further. And sometimes I'd lend my ears to her when she wants to talk about her love life. I don't have advises for her, but I'm happy that she trusts me to tell me her problems.
     And yet another friend of mine, confides in me his relationship too. He tells me that he feels like I'm the only big sister he has that he can talk to.
     I'm actually flattered that people see me as the person that they can talk to, but will there be someone for me to talk to when I have love issues? I'm currently not in a relationship, nor in love with anyone. What I have are just meaningless crushes, but if I do end up in another relationship, will there be another person like me whom I can talk to, who will give me all their attention and help me get through the hard times?

Forgetfullness

     I'm only 23 years old last August, but I sometimes find myself forgetful. Just the other day, to put on some make up I took my glasses out (yes I do wear glasses, in case you were wondering) and hung it on the front of my t-shirt. After completing my daily routine of applying my eyeliner and lip-gloss plus powder I wanted to get to work, so I started searching for my glasses. I looked on the stairs, in the room, in my bathroom and I can't find it. I started panicking and frantically searched everywhere for it.
     My mom was helping me too, as I was literally blind without my glasses. As I was looking for it in one of the rooms in our house, suddenly my sister pointed out to me, "your glasses are at the front of your shirt."
     I stopped, and looked down, and would you know it, my glasses was hanging there so innocently all this while. I felt so mortified, I put on my glasses and rushed out of my house before anyone teased me.
     This isn't the first time things like this happen to me. I've been forgetting trivial things many times now. I hope it gets better not worse.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Emotions


emotions

     I can't get it: emotions. The feelings of love, hatred, sadness, happiness, joy and depression. Its everywhere. It envelops you, smothers you, and it never leaves you alone. Its a part of every human being. You try to run away from it, yet there it is, closer to you than your shadow.
     LOVE seems to be the deepest of emotions, so they say. You know the saying; love can conquer it all, love is the strongest what-not. I'm not saying I don't believe in love, but what is LOVE nowadays?
Saying "I LOVE YOU", is that love? Or buying fancy gifts, is that love? Just looking at each other, is that love?
LOVE
Enlighten me please. Can people fall in love without knowing each other? Is that possible? When I say it's impossible, they say it is possible and they can't live without this particular person they love. But, weren't you living all along, before you met this person?
I'm not being sarcastic or cynical, but do think about it. Is the love you feel for someone you knew for a day, could be more deeper than the love for the people who brought you into this world?
I used to think I was in love once too. I though I couldn't live without that other person. But now that my mind is more clearer, I realized, we are capable of living without that person. They haven't been in our lives for long. Sure its hard at first, but well, you got to learn to let go. Am I right?
HATE
     Then What about HATRED? Some say hatred causes grief. Why do we hate someone? What makes us feel that? Is Hatred a feeling that we can let go of? I've hated people before too, but it usually goes away. Why do some people hate others, without giving a chance to get to know them? How do you know whether you'll like me or not if you don't let go of your hatred for me? What did I do? I don't know you yet you hate me. How do you explain that? Some say hatred is caused by jealousy. Then jealousy should be the core of all grief. But then again, jealousy is caused by low self-esteem, caused by poor upbringing, caused by busy parents who need to find money to survive, which brings us to money being the main factor, and the circle can go on forever. So, the next time you start to hate someone, think of the reason why you hate that person. If you don't know them, then get to know them first. If they are really annoying, then it's okay for you to hate them.

HAPPY

Happiness and sadness both are results that are connected to love and hate. If you love someone, you'd be so happy you'd feel like you're dancing on rainbows, yet when you lost that love, you'd be so sad you could end your life. Hating someone makes you unhappy too. When you see that person's face, you can't stand them being around you, so you scowl all day long. And when the person you hate gets into trouble, you'd be smiling oh-so happily for their misfortune. See how it is connected? So you make a choice in being happy or sad.

SAD


Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Tokio Hotel in my life...

I was cut off from my blogging for a long time..due to work, stress yada yada yada.....
and now i'm back..
looking back on my blog, i see i was obssessed with My Chemical Romance at that time, now I realize, i'm obsessed with Tokio Hotel. Oh you know, the German rock band that suddenly got the hype when they performed at the EMA's in 2007 and got the rain pouring down on them for the song Monsoon? well that's the band i'm crazy about at the moment.

                                          TOKIO HOTEL

Just as an introduction, the band consists of Bill Kaulitz (vocalist), lead guitarist which is Bill's twin brother, Tom Kaulitz, bassist Georg Listing and drummer Gustav Shafer.


                                                         BILL KAULITZ
                                                       TOM KAULITZ
                                                       GEORG LISTING
                                                        GUSTAV SHAFER

I got the chance to see the band Live in Malaysia on the 1st of May 2010 with my little brother and sister. It was a real adventure for us. Since the concert was to be at Kuala Lumpur and we stayed in Ipoh, we had to take a train to KL, which means we had to take the night train and spend the night at KL Central. We reached KL around midnight, so there were only a few people at KL central when we arrived. We just sat and talked about Tokio Hotel in the wee hours of the morning.


When the sun came up, and the trains started to move in the morning, we took one all the way to Kelana Jaya. And then we had to take a Rapid KL bus to One Utama Mall, where the concert was to be held. 



The concert only starts in the evening, but the autograph session was scheduled in the morning. We had to wait in line, where we met and befriended other Tokio Hotel fans.

There were two girls who had miniature dolls that looked like Bill and Tom Kaulitz. They had it specially made in Hong Kong.



 The crowd started to get restless when it was already noon and Tokio Hotel still haven't showed up. When the band finally came onstage, everyone went crazy and started screaming. My little sis got the chance to go onstage to get their autograph as we had to have their cd to go onstage, and my sis had it, so we(my brother and I) gave her the chance.


It was a good thing too as they had obligingly signed a drawing i made of them too. I am still keeping this drawing somewhere safe.





Since the concert was only to start in the evening, we quickly ran to the concert entrance and sat out there. We were out there for like hours in the blazing hot sun. And at one point about two hours before the concert, some fans from the back started to stand up and push those in front. Imagine claustrophobia, being sandwiched in between other humans. Boy, was that an experience or what. Being the drama queen that I am, I felt like I couldn't breathe, and I felt like I was going to die. I almost gave up on the concert.

But thankfully when they finally let us in. I was out of the claustrophobic state, but I was already deprived of sleep and  liquid, as we were heating in the sun and couldn't go out of the crowd to get anything to drink. I had to leave the concert area to get a drink, and food. By the time i came back, the concert opening act was performing. I thank the heavens that i didnt miss Tokio Hotel. They were awesome as the came onstage.

 Bill had an amazing voice. It was so powerful ,it gave me goosebumps listening to him. I couldn't believe that I was finally seeing them onstage.






When the concert was over, i felt drained out of my energy, because I literally didn't sleep for 24 hours. Our parents came to fetch us at One Utama Mall. That was the greatest experience i had. Although i almost passed out, suffered claustrophobia, got burned in the sun, and lost my money in the crowd, it was all forgotten once I saw them on stage.