I was looking through my old things and I found a book in which I wrote poems, once upon a time ago when I was still in school. I want to share it here.
I can just imagine,
you, just laughing,
showing off,
full of pride,
and everything that I wish you were,
You are, but not in front of me,
But to someone else,
Though I thought I saw a flicker,
In my candle of hope,
But the wind of truth,
Blew the candle out,
Even a fool could see right through you,
It's so obvious, that, you too,
Just like others,
Have the same interests,
which does not concern me,
If not, there wouldn't be any reason,
for you to be flaunting yourself,
while I sit here, like a fool,
Imagining of a bright future,
But rejection is the most,
bitter of all medicine,
And that is what you gave me,
With a big dose of disappointment,
Leaving me in a depth of hopelessness,
Though I say that I don't care,
But deep inside, a blade had cut through,
My heart, it's bleeding,
Over thorns in a garden of roses,
Where no rain,
Can wash away the blood,
And the tears, though not shed,
gets collected,
in the dam of my heart,
I know that I am an idiot,
For feeling like a pathetic fool,
But I know not how to feel that way,
I don't know what can distract me,
From thoughts of you,
Although I said I didn't hope for anything,
But maybe, deep inside,
I expected for something,
Which I will never get,
But that shouldn't make me sad,
I've got to pull myself together,
Stand up tall and proud,
Ignore you,
And move on,
There are better opportunities,
If I turn away from you,
Well, I just hope that,
you understand,
That it hurts to be rejected,
Maybe you should be rejected by someone,
for you to understand how it feels,
But I don't want to curse you that, because,
The feeling of rejection hurts,
And though I'm hurt by you,
I really don't want you to get hurt,
By another one's rejection to you,
As I'll move on, and find someone else,
While memories of you will fill my mind,
as something of the past.
19/07/06
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